blood never looked so good

newly a narcissist because of photobooth

then again...
blood has never looked so good

i just set them up to knock them down


i believe that when you realize that you're not the only one who is hurting, and you can bring yourself above your own pain to realize and attempt to relieve the pain of others, you've grown just a bit more

I'm not gunna waste these words...

say those three words

8 letters
three syllables
say them and i'm yours

these words were never easier for me to say

this life that was created upon a sheet of glass
is not mine, but ours
it must be handled so gently and carefully
for at any moment it could break

postsecret.com

hahahha<3<3


on a more serious note:

risky business-

you're not who i once thought you were.
just because we're not friends doesn't mean i don't care.
your elaborations and weaving of lies push me away,
not someone else
its not even a question of what ou do anymore
its a question of where did you go
who is your person anymore
you absolutely disgust me
you are an embarrassment evenwhen im not with you


take your own words back,
swallow them along with your pride
let it sit
and fester

things have changed for me...

june08
when she speaks it makes me grind my teeth
shallow is as shallow does
some people never change
wou're as fake as the moansyou make
and its so hard to do ans so easy to say
but sometimes- sometimes
you just have to walk away- walk away and head for the door

or in your case...head for a fence with the grill of your car
maybe that will teach you
because god couldnt
i couldnt
death couldnt
im not sure what will

sometimes the anti-venom is the poison its self

if you thought i would be kind about this,
you've never been more wrong
admit onething.
that you are always wrong.
hold it in, push it out.
writhe
shiver
cry

realize.

so very qual

Graduate, Paper Chase

as i find more, i'll probably repost this.
this is just a reminder for myself actually
___________________________________

Please stand by
We've come so far
four years we survived
The ride that turned us inside out

Repeat after me
Just scream and shout
It was the best of times
From broken homes and battle scars
To where we are

Graduate
Paperchase
We'll get out of this place
Don't turn around
hit the highway pour some liquor out for this town

Now that's all for us
It's last call drink up

Roll it out
It's over now
We're the castouts
With messed up friends
Who never did fit in

Don't care where it ends
Doesn't matter now
Long as we're as one
We'll take the next bus
Destination: setting sun


++++++++

What a catch
I will never end up like him
Behind my back, I already am
Keep a calendar
This way you will always know

I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of
Is the way I'm the one
Who charmed the one
Who gave up on you
Who gave up on you


Where is your boy tonight?
I hope he is a gentleman
Maybe he won't find out what I know
You were the last good thing
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar, we're goin' down swinging
Dance, dance, we're falling apart to halftime
Dance, dance, and these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamn arms race
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you, only sweeter
Growing up, growing up

I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch

the day i can sing this to someone, ill be complete

Run Kid Run - One In A Million


To my surpise i found my daylight
In summer skies yeah whoa
Colors came out in waves
When i first saw your face shine through
A spotlight fell that day
I’ll make this loud so you can hear me say

Hey there one in a million
I feel alive as our love it collides
You put life into motion
You’ve got me spinning
Your spinning me out of control
Girl dream big
We’ll do it all
When the city calls
Hand in hand this is love
Buildings tower over us
Your a queen won’t you dance won’t you sing
Your melody (your melody)
Smile for the best days exist
I’m the luckiest your the reason for this

Hey there one in a million
I feel alive as our love it collides
You put life into motion
You’ve got me spinning
Your spinning me out of control
As my life explodes
You’ve got me hanging on i’m hanging on
I’m out of control as my life explodes
You’ve got me hanging on forever
We’re hanging on together
We’re hanging on forever

Hey there one in a million
One in a million
Life’s in motion
You’ve got me spinning
As our world’s collide

Hey there one in a million
I feel alive as our love it collides
You put life into motion
You’ve got me spinning
Your spinning me out of control.

best buy parking lot hallelujah

pills given to offset between death and drinks
but bring the onset of sips and hardly breathing
is this what you want?

the only lurker i'll ever want

if i saw this little one lurking....
id be on it.

my heart ticks in beat with [these kids that i grew up with]

its in the way the city lights up
its in the way we felt like giants upon model cars
its in the way i cant ever take you back
i wouldn't choose to
a skipped line on a contract reads:
caution, attachments may form
and oh how they have
the way i fall in love every time were all together
something i wouldn't give up for the world
all the diamonds and all the riches wouldn't make me give you up
how we climbed to the tallest point
and our names
something true upon the slang and vandalism
i hope its there forever
and if its not,
ill recarve it again and again
to let the world know
that what we have will never die
severed distance will only lead to tighter strings attaching our hearts
because they all tick together already
one
beat
at
a
time

We're Always Kickin' Back

<3

Three Things I've Always Wanted

1. Someone To Tell Me I'll Do Something Great
2. Someone to tell me "Everything will be okay"
3.Honesty

Welcome, to the new Glingo.

Glingo= Lone Star Girls Lingo= Glingo
(cant forget the sheriff)

So, for all of you lost little kittykats who have no idea what all the Glingo is, here it is, spelled out for you.


Fexpensive= FUCKING EXPENSIVE!
"that american apparel hoodie is fexpensive!"

Song Binging= the act of listening to a song over and over and over
"Omg. I am so Song Binging What A Catch, Donnie by FOB right now"

Tag Hag= When someone is obsessed with a certain clothing label and has most of the items in the store
"Jamie is such an american apparel tag hag!"
(haha love you jamie=])

You Forgot Poland= What you say to someone when you want to one up them after you have totally just been pwned.
"Hey Rac, You Forgot Poland"

Chawch=an asshole/douchebag
"Dude, stop being such a cawch to her"

faja= another, nicer, word for fuck
"FAJA MY LIFE!"

Fosh=for+sure
"wanna go downtown this weekend with the LSGs?"
"FOSH!"

Fittie=a very hot man
"Alex Marshall is a fittie FOSH!"

Thumb Me=Text me
"Thumb me when you get home tonight so we can listen to the new Paramore single together"

Sando= Sandwhich
"Want a sando from potbellys or a burrito from Qdoba?"

Williams=Dollar Bills
"how many williams do you have?"
"about 20 bucks"

Jeanz=Genius
" i Bet if we hang out in the back of the venue we can totally run into the cute drummer from the opening band!"
"OMG! you're so jeanz!"

Shefted= A noun, adjective or verb in place of any word you want; i.e. Durf, Santi
"...he totally just got shefted"

Biffs=That Blows
"The show is sold out! ugh...this biffs"

Rac-ed= Rocked, pwned
"Jessica just ate it while getting on the train"
"RAC-ED!"

T.k.ked= stole, gangked
"I T.k.ked that wallet from Urban Outfitters"

ILML="illmill" I love my life
"i got the you asking for a KyKy sando from the Ed Debevics waitress on tape"
"yes! qual as ever...ILML!"



p.s. LSGs add "z" to the end of everything and also... we Abrev Ev

oh my gatz.
i lovez us.

Say, "Thank you Bill"

"Thank you Bill"

haha how hannahbeth.

lost in the stars, im not giving anything back
what you gave is mine forever
you can't take that away
tonight i traded hyssop and hyacinth
for nicotine and toxic fog
close enough to touch
far enough to make the right decision
woke up with my head in the stars
and fell asleep to fiction
i hope this isnt
its ringing in my ears
im giving it all to you
wanting you to have the best
happier than i
i know love doesnt look you in the face everyday
but maybe you should turn around
and take it upon yourself
to look it in the eye and say
just watch me
if we lose hope in it
where are we?
who are we?
we end up bedraggled by our jobs, alone
that wont be me. it wont be you. it wont be us.
i promise
maybe love doesnt find us in those forms we wish
but its everywhere but where we hope to find it
and its all we can ask for sometimes

I assure you this is not a cab.

NORAH: One of the best things about Judaism is called tikkun olam. It’s the idea that the world has been broken in pieces, and it’s up to us to gather them and put them back together.
NICK: Maybe we’re the pieces
+++
Other bands, it's about sex. Or pain. Or some fantasy. But The Beatles, they knew what they were doing. You know the reason The Beatles made it so big? 'I Wanna Hold Your Hand.' First single. Fucking brilliant. Perhaps the most Fucking brilliant song ever written. Because they nailed it. That's what everyone wants. Not 24-7 hot wet sex. Not a marriage that lasts a hundred years. Not a Porsche or a bj or a million-dollar crib. No. They wanna hold your hand. They have such a feeling that they can't hide. Ever single successful love story has those unbearable and unbearably exciting moments of hand-holding." -Dev from Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist

_______________________

i absolutely loved this movie.
walking out of it, i sort of felt like i was in love.
it sort of left me with an elation
to be with my best friends
enjoying a brilliant movie about everything i love:
Love
Music
Adventure
Friendship

im newly obsessed with this movie.

lets get lost in a crowd together

ZOMBIESZOMBIES

happy halloween.

Lady Capulet + Voltaire

sometimes I am positive i only write because i know you will be reading it
just so i can so subliminally slide my messages to you
like forbidden paper notes slid between the desks of school children

[hush now]

"when a simple feeling of loneliness creates a buildup on our chest and makes you feel like you're drowning in a sea by yourself. i cant believe its brought me to my knees. this is a void that cannot be filled. i am ashamed to say so but i'm not sure when the breaking point will be reached or what will happen when it is. the phrase 'unloveable' comes to mind. in so many ways i am. and its my greatest fear. I've always been alone and more recently, less than ever. so why is it i feel like this? this want, this need. the way your skin reflects in the light, the way your hips point down. i envy them. look how out of character you've made me. and maybe thats just it. its in the way i cant have you that creates this void. and the problem isn't that i don't have anyone, its the problem that i can't have you."
- - -

s i x t w o t h r e e f o l e e

hearing things i have been told my whole life
and so confused
is this really the way i come across to you?
i am the example i hate
the perfect example of a hidden life
"i cant talk to her, you just dont go up and talk to girls like that"
but why not?
you have no idea i'm more l like you on the inside that i will ever be like them on the outside
you might never see...
... but i found a drug
to replicate the way i felt in your wake
even if it made my body numb to all else they way you did
it still didn't fill up my head like an old pool and make me swim how you did
P.U.S.H
its you that i'm p.u.s.h.ing for
more than one of you actually
holding on spinning in my head
its been so long since i've worn this face
maybe its the loss of warm weather that brings it
i had lost these worry lines so long before the summer sun hit junes moon

Bunnywith

preface: im not a freak, i promise.
I don't think i've ever seen anything so disturbing and intriguing
alex pardee
he does the covers for the used
his artwork is so grotesque at points but i just cant stop looking
its the oddest talent
but talent none the less
what provokes these images in someones mind?
i'd like to know

the way i still hold on

Hey there one in a million
I feel alive as our love it collides
You put life into motion
You’ve got me spinning
Your spinning me out of control
Girl dream big
We’ll do it all
When the city calls
Hand in hand this is love
Buildings tower over us
Your a queen won’t you dance won’t you sing
Your melody (your melody)
Smile for the best days exist
I’m the luckiest your the reason for this

Hey there one in a million
I feel alive as our love it collides
You put life into motion
You’ve got me spinning
Your spinning me out of control
As my life explodes
You’ve got me hanging on i’m hanging on
I’m out of control as my life explodes
You’ve got me hanging on forever
We’re hanging on together
We’re hanging on forever

Hey there one in a million
One in a million
Life’s in motion
You’ve got me spinning
As our world’s collide

Hey there one in a million
I feel alive as our love it collides
You put life into motion
You’ve got me spinning
Your spinning me out of control.
- i love run kid run
i found him in them.
i am much more than i thought.
you are much more than i thought.
you all keep up my faith
my faith in everything
please never turn on me
i couldnt stand not having you in my head all day

through it all

and after everything i have put out
all i have thrown your way
its all just for another body
one more
beside me
...thats it.

cooler ways to die.

is it weird to have a picture of hannah beth in my ceiling collage?
yeah it is.
...freak.
check 'em out:

I never knew...

Turn look, look out and see.
Do you see me? Cause I think I see you.
I've been some other place.
The wind that I chase, it all just leads back to you.
Oh how I'm still, so still it's sobering, but still I ran.
I knew you when I was young, but where am I now that I'm a man.

Run to you, I will run, I will run
I will move, right on through all these things that I have done.
And you'll take me back, I don't know why.
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
But I will try.

Turn look, look out and see.
Do you see me? Cause I think I see you.
I've been some other place.
The wind that I chase it all just leads back to you.
Oh how I miss what you miss, but I will fall time and again.
And I will say, that I'm true to you, but I'm a cheat.
I don't understand.

So I'll run to you, I will run, I will run
I will move, right on through all these things that I have done.
And you'll take me back, I don't know why.
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
But I will try.

-picture:Memphis, '08

srettiuqrofsibaher

rain.
not a waterfall.
keep saying it to yourself.
rain.
not a waterfall.
my nerves stretch
from here to california
taught and high strung
and you've just made the wires snap
sending backlash across the country
there is a mother fucking reason i never trusted you
i really was holding my breath
and the black holes in my vision
blinded me from seeing you will never change
and i keep believing you will
my insides know better
they whisper, dont do it, dont believe
and send a feeling through my gut
but oh no
my head is in it for the love, and said you can, you can
but you cant, you wont
i so badly want to say hate.
but i cant
because i dont hate
just hurt
very hurt

a ring, a promise, never ending, like the circle that intertwines us

like springs flower
ill bloom again
and prove myself
if you'll let me,
just let me in

I just hope you know
im here to pullyou through
a rope in the sea
a hand to pullyou to light
i hope you know.
the world isnt right, it took us long enough to figure out
that adults arent perfect
sometimes we see this now that were older
friends arent perfect
but then again no one ever taught us they were
but im holding on, and holding up for you
ive given you my all
and i wont stop
this is forever
its my promise
the only one i will never break
your base you stand on, a shoulder to help carry the world
to get your back
to tell you the truth
to never back down
when the ones who arent supposed to back out,
I. NEVER. WILL.