anticipate precipitate

i'm not much.
i'm not a great painter
and i dont have much talent musically
i've never had a 4.0 but thats never stopped me from trying
i'm not a model and i don't run with an elite crowd
i'm not the most creative or the smartest
but i learn from my mistakes
and i put my 100% into everyone i love
no one is put aside
and i give my all everyday
but i think most of all, i have a whole heart
and i am entirely ready and willing for someone to take it
and use it
and show me love is real

i would

no, i didnt mean to



its winter. were so far from the months we held so dear
but they are still in my heart, and like i was reminded yesterday,
summer forever

You were the best thing summer gave me
Better than silence and no school
No curfew and no rules
I was the last thing you expected to become part of your life

So sing this song while you drive home baby you drive home baby
I will sing along from another country another country and
So goes the telephone while the planes and trains won't let me go oh no
Pause the world and I will go there

And when the pollination starts
In the springtime baby the springtime baby
Can we map out all the parks?
If I find time maybe I'll find time maybe and

I have nothing to say other than I love you
And I'll stay if you want me
If you let me I will go

If I admit that I was wrong
In the right tone baby the right tone baby
And pretend that I belong in the same room
maybe the same room maybe
I have nothing to say about this
I love you and I'll stay if you want it
If you let me I will go

i still love you no matter how much time removed

eatyourheartout

funniest thing of my life

fall formal

thanks to everyone who came out
tonight was incredible
i love everyone pretty much
too too much funnnn
<3 wonderful pictures

i haven't written anything of substance in a very long time
but i'm waiting for it to come to me
when it does, it doesn't stop

fall formal was a blasty blast and now i'm couting down the days until next year

FLIP ME

give thanks-

artsy.

you me and everyone we know

yewhew!

4 days 21 minutes 29 seconds

we can't both have her lady

W:Peter, What are your real feelings?
P: feelings?
W: what you feel: happiness, sadness, jealousy
P: jealousy? ...Tink
W: anger?
P: anger? hook...
W: love?
P: love?
W: love.
P: i have never heard of it
W: i think you have peter i dare say you felt it yourself for something or someone
P: never. event he sound of it offends me. why do you spoil everything? i taught you to fight and to fly! what more else could there be?
W: there is so much more, i believe it becomes clearer when you grow up.
P: Well i will not grow up, you cannot make me.

i'm still waiting for you to send me...

a charm for around my neck
because i haven't learned to tie a noose just yet

tell me whats so wrong with letting me shine?

you keep your ego and ill keep my peace of mind.

i
cant
stand
the
way
you're
looking
at
me

youmeandeveryoneweknowsometimeswehavetoomuchfun

come away, come away with me to neverland

July First 2007-
a letter to you:
i'm bad at goodbye but thats ok,
because you never say them, though we should
you say "aye, this is all my doing"
...i better find my way out of this
it's all my fault because i had been restrained by fear
afraid i'd do anything get rid of your taste, mixed with tears to forget
"more than anything"
these lips are too proud to be loose
but not for you
you lure me in because you know you can
-ashmaed i could stay with you like this forever

oh my how things haven't changed

hero/heroine

oh god.
i fucking missed you.
more than i knew.
i'll always love you
theres no use denying that

maybe...
...just maybe.

had my heat on lockdown
but then you turned it around

My Little Decoy

From The Original- before touch screens and no more touch me's


i was right from the very first day
" but waiting for, say 2 years feeling like this with this empty void inside of me? no."

fantastic posing greed

For so many years I've tasted tears
Prayed for all the pain to go away
And leave me alone
All that time I was unaware
That love was around me everywhere
But somehow I did not know
And I've learned to live with things
That I cannot change
It took me so long to get to this place

But I have arrived
Linda Davis
i dont care if you hate my lifestyle
i dont care if you hate my friends
i dont care if you hate my scene
i dont care if you hate me
deal with it, im not going anywhere but faster
here goes my life in the fast lane
and im just taking off
pedal
to
the
metal

"Dont you understand Tink, you mean more to me than anything in the whole world! "

When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night

When the moon found the sun
He looked like he was barely hanging on
But her eyes saved his life
In the middle of summer

In the middle of summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer, summer, summer
All was golden when the day met the night

Well, he was just hanging around
Then he fell in love
And he didn't know how
But he couldn't get out
Just hanging around
Then he fell in love
-
when the day met the night


"You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting."
that place between day and night
thats where i'll always love you
a sunrise
or twilight
that inbetween.
where we can almost meet, but not quite.
thats where i'll always love you

Matt Wysocki

has awesome editing skills
can i please take your film now?
i wish i could take pics like this

i'll do anything to keep this hair

E.M.O. Assistance Terminal for the Song 'Bounce Bounce' from clandestine on Vimeo.

if you really want to know me

just look at my hands

Jac Vanek Bracelet- Im a little scene, and i got it at warped tour= MY LOVE
green and black bead bracelet w/ "believe" on it- from Cheerleading, yeah im a cheerleader.
green wristband#1- From Coaching a cheerleading competition
striped green wristband #2- from a local show, woohoo shows
purple and yellow- from my best friend jess
purple and blue friendship bracelet- from my bratpack, who mean the world to me
claddagh ring- love+loyalty+friendship and upside down, so i dont have a boyfriend/husband/ fiance
"figure 8s" ring- my moms from the 70s, i like old stuff

make you wanna lick the RAPPER.

just add a scar

and call me harry potter

my half way home

ouch.
my heart hurts.
and i dont think i have lifted my eyes for an hour.
i just had an encounter.
my mom brought her friend brian over who she goes to meetings with and has known since july,
no this is'nt a story of adultry...ew dont even go there. hahah
for those of you that know me might be able to put two and two together to know what i mean by meetings.
anyways.
he was at my house
tall young boy of 20
adorable face
shy and quiet
reminded me of a young child
his car had the license plates from Colorado
with ACDC and special blend snowboard stickers on it
i came in my house and meekly said hello and went straight up to my room
and stayed there.
i had to go back down to get something
but i couldn't lift my eyes to meet the sad ones of the boy
he was telling my mom bout colorado and how he moved out with his mom to who is here because his dad couldn't handle him.
he lives in a half way home in chicago
because he is a heroin addict.
and i couldn't meet his eyes
i have been in rooms with many addicts: alcoholics, heroin addicts, cocaine addicts, you name it.
yes, i've seen the insides of rehabs and hospitals.
and i have taken them on with bravery
but why couldn't i meet the eyes of this boy?
it broke my heart to see him.
so young.
was it my fear that i might see myself in his eyes?
was it my fear that he was looking to me for some guidance of how i have handled everything?
i dont know
but why couldn't i meet his eyes?

LoneStarGirls Prepare For State and Madison!

hello helicopter

we all waste and consume
destroy and ruin
everything we touch

llife lessons, from GK!

color me wonderful

we are so very odd.

In My treasure Chest Lies The Most Precious Gem, My Heart

there are certain people.
wonderful people.
many of them
yet in a way a select few,
who hold that wonderful golden spot in my heart
not gilded, but many thick karats laid down
in one long road, leading straight to my memory
with a luster never to be forgotten or replaced
theyl will never leave
and just like diamonds
they will last forever
long after carbon takes over
and dust replaces bone
the essence you can't capture will float up and up
along with the birds
up to the heavens
and stay with the angels
yeah, thats where those people lie to me
from my heart, to heaven
just like jewels

you're a stranger i know well

you promised.
since we were 7
every minor detail would be shared
since then the lines have been blurred and burned
but you woud think you could hint me in on something this colossal?
i was so hurt by your dishonesty.

and WHY cant i just spit out the words?
i did
you didnt get it
and i read right through your lines
you cant quite say no
cause you wouldn't dream of letting me down
but you are
by kicking the dirt over my statements

why you wanna give it, why you wanna give it, why you wanna give it all away
they paved paradise and put up a parking lot

"We're A Pretty Messed Up Pair, Aren't We?"

obsessed.

I Know You, I Danced With You Once Upon a Dream

where did all their mommies go?
to rehab of course.
raising a princess can't be easy.

All Over Again

we'll still be here. cause we've been since the beginning. you just dont turn you back on things or people like this, genuine minds, genuine demeanors-d

Enjoy life, and let love come- cs

-holy crap. my friends hold talents that surpass mine

Sadly Enough...

this reminds me too much of me and my best friend...usually about fall out boy.

i took a wrong turn back at the corner of love and hollowness

i got halfway down the street when i realized, i had never seen this place in my life. and it was a place i named myself, but in fact, the given name was actually a town 1000 miles away


i never understood her, but now i feel the same
"im sorry that i couldnt...before... i wish i could change how i feel about you. Maybe...maybe i would change, maybe if you gave me some time... just dont quit on me now, i cant take it"



no matter how far, you still evade my mind
then i realize, theres none here
so stop watching for it
when the fuck did i fall apart.

when we turn the pages

Lonestar Girls Shananigans

ten things

on my mind:
1. will i end up like you? because i dont want to feel like that
2. i dont want to be tied to you in the way i am, it'll hurt
3. i'm so sorry
4. happy birthday=]
5. will my karma every come? the real kind, in the form i want
6. i hate math
7. shut up. seriously stop talking
8. how long do i have to keep you a secret?
9. i want to write something completely honest and true about myself, but i have nothing
10. i have a lot of best friends. all different, all unique, i am so fortunate.

any requests on what to write?
i am totally slacking on here lately.

my thoughts are just a frenzy of tangled spider webs
same old dusty matieral
just being moved about and over used

i need new stuff.