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    Sunday, November 30, 2008

    anticipate precipitate

    i'm not much.
    i'm not a great painter
    and i dont have much talent musically
    i've never had a 4.0 but thats never stopped me from trying
    i'm not a model and i don't run with an elite crowd
    i'm not the most creative or the smartest
    but i learn from my mistakes
    and i put my 100% into everyone i love
    no one is put aside
    and i give my all everyday
    but i think most of all, i have a whole heart
    and i am entirely ready and willing for someone to take it
    and use it
    and show me love is real

    i would

    no, i didnt mean to

    its winter. were so far from the months we held so dear
    but they are still in my heart, and like i was reminded yesterday,
    summer forever

    You were the best thing summer gave me
    Better than silence and no school
    No curfew and no rules
    I was the last thing you expected to become part of your life

    So sing this song while you drive home baby you drive home baby
    I will sing along from another country another country and
    So goes the telephone while the planes and trains won't let me go oh no
    Pause the world and I will go there

    And when the pollination starts
    In the springtime baby the springtime baby
    Can we map out all the parks?
    If I find time maybe I'll find time maybe and

    I have nothing to say other than I love you
    And I'll stay if you want me
    If you let me I will go

    If I admit that I was wrong
    In the right tone baby the right tone baby
    And pretend that I belong in the same room
    maybe the same room maybe
    I have nothing to say about this
    I love you and I'll stay if you want it
    If you let me I will go

    i still love you no matter how much time removed


    funniest thing of my life

    fall formal

    thanks to everyone who came out
    tonight was incredible
    i love everyone pretty much
    too too much funnnn
    <3 wonderful pictures

    i haven't written anything of substance in a very long time
    but i'm waiting for it to come to me
    when it does, it doesn't stop

    fall formal was a blasty blast and now i'm couting down the days until next year

    Wednesday, November 26, 2008

    Monday, November 24, 2008


    4 days 21 minutes 29 seconds

    Sunday, November 23, 2008

    we can't both have her lady

    W:Peter, What are your real feelings?
    P: feelings?
    W: what you feel: happiness, sadness, jealousy
    P: jealousy? ...Tink
    W: anger?
    P: anger? hook...
    W: love?
    P: love?
    W: love.
    P: i have never heard of it
    W: i think you have peter i dare say you felt it yourself for something or someone
    P: never. event he sound of it offends me. why do you spoil everything? i taught you to fight and to fly! what more else could there be?
    W: there is so much more, i believe it becomes clearer when you grow up.
    P: Well i will not grow up, you cannot make me.

    wendy_peter Pictures, Images and Photos

    i'm still waiting for you to send me...

    a charm for around my neck
    because i haven't learned to tie a noose just yet

    tell me whats so wrong with letting me shine?

    you keep your ego and ill keep my peace of mind.



    come away, come away with me to neverland

    July First 2007-
    a letter to you:
    i'm bad at goodbye but thats ok,
    because you never say them, though we should
    you say "aye, this is all my doing"
    ...i better find my way out of this
    it's all my fault because i had been restrained by fear
    afraid i'd do anything get rid of your taste, mixed with tears to forget
    "more than anything"
    these lips are too proud to be loose
    but not for you
    you lure me in because you know you can
    -ashmaed i could stay with you like this forever

    oh my how things haven't changed


    oh god.
    i fucking missed you.
    more than i knew.
    i'll always love you
    theres no use denying that

    ...just maybe.

    had my heat on lockdown
    but then you turned it around

    Friday, November 21, 2008

    My Little Decoy

    From The Original- before touch screens and no more touch me's

    i was right from the very first day
    " but waiting for, say 2 years feeling like this with this empty void inside of me? no."

    fantastic posing greed

    For so many years I've tasted tears
    Prayed for all the pain to go away
    And leave me alone
    All that time I was unaware
    That love was around me everywhere
    But somehow I did not know
    And I've learned to live with things
    That I cannot change
    It took me so long to get to this place

    But I have arrived
    Linda Davis
    i dont care if you hate my lifestyle
    i dont care if you hate my friends
    i dont care if you hate my scene
    i dont care if you hate me
    deal with it, im not going anywhere but faster
    here goes my life in the fast lane
    and im just taking off

    Tuesday, November 18, 2008

    "Dont you understand Tink, you mean more to me than anything in the whole world! "

    When the moon fell in love with the sun
    All was golden in the sky
    All was golden when the day met the night

    When the moon found the sun
    He looked like he was barely hanging on
    But her eyes saved his life
    In the middle of summer

    In the middle of summer
    All was golden in the sky
    All was golden when the day met the night
    All was golden in the sky
    All was golden when the day met the night
    Summer, summer, summer
    All was golden when the day met the night

    Well, he was just hanging around
    Then he fell in love
    And he didn't know how
    But he couldn't get out
    Just hanging around
    Then he fell in love
    when the day met the night
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    "You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting."
    that place between day and night
    thats where i'll always love you
    a sunrise
    or twilight
    that inbetween.
    where we can almost meet, but not quite.
    thats where i'll always love you

    Matt Wysocki

    has awesome editing skills
    can i please take your film now?
    i wish i could take pics like this

    matt wysocki Pictures, Images and Photos

    Sunday, November 16, 2008

    i'll do anything to keep this hair

    E.M.O. Assistance Terminal for the Song 'Bounce Bounce' from clandestine on Vimeo.

    if you really want to know me

    just look at my hands

    Jac Vanek Bracelet- Im a little scene, and i got it at warped tour= MY LOVE
    green and black bead bracelet w/ "believe" on it- from Cheerleading, yeah im a cheerleader.
    green wristband#1- From Coaching a cheerleading competition
    striped green wristband #2- from a local show, woohoo shows
    purple and yellow- from my best friend jess
    purple and blue friendship bracelet- from my bratpack, who mean the world to me
    claddagh ring- love+loyalty+friendship and upside down, so i dont have a boyfriend/husband/ fiance
    "figure 8s" ring- my moms from the 70s, i like old stuff

    make you wanna lick the RAPPER.

    Saturday, November 15, 2008

    just add a scar

    and call me harry potter

    Thursday, November 13, 2008

    my half way home

    my heart hurts.
    and i dont think i have lifted my eyes for an hour.
    i just had an encounter.
    my mom brought her friend brian over who she goes to meetings with and has known since july,
    no this is'nt a story of adultry...ew dont even go there. hahah
    for those of you that know me might be able to put two and two together to know what i mean by meetings.
    he was at my house
    tall young boy of 20
    adorable face
    shy and quiet
    reminded me of a young child
    his car had the license plates from Colorado
    with ACDC and special blend snowboard stickers on it
    i came in my house and meekly said hello and went straight up to my room
    and stayed there.
    i had to go back down to get something
    but i couldn't lift my eyes to meet the sad ones of the boy
    he was telling my mom bout colorado and how he moved out with his mom to who is here because his dad couldn't handle him.
    he lives in a half way home in chicago
    because he is a heroin addict.
    and i couldn't meet his eyes
    i have been in rooms with many addicts: alcoholics, heroin addicts, cocaine addicts, you name it.
    yes, i've seen the insides of rehabs and hospitals.
    and i have taken them on with bravery
    but why couldn't i meet the eyes of this boy?
    it broke my heart to see him.
    so young.
    was it my fear that i might see myself in his eyes?
    was it my fear that he was looking to me for some guidance of how i have handled everything?
    i dont know
    but why couldn't i meet his eyes?

    Tuesday, November 11, 2008

    hello helicopter

    we all waste and consume
    destroy and ruin
    everything we touch

    llife lessons, from GK!

    color me wonderful

    we are so very odd.

    Monday, November 10, 2008

    In My treasure Chest Lies The Most Precious Gem, My Heart

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    there are certain people.
    wonderful people.
    many of them
    yet in a way a select few,
    who hold that wonderful golden spot in my heart
    not gilded, but many thick karats laid down
    in one long road, leading straight to my memory
    with a luster never to be forgotten or replaced
    theyl will never leave
    and just like diamonds
    they will last forever
    long after carbon takes over
    and dust replaces bone
    the essence you can't capture will float up and up
    along with the birds
    up to the heavens
    and stay with the angels
    yeah, thats where those people lie to me
    from my heart, to heaven
    just like jewels
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    Sunday, November 9, 2008

    you're a stranger i know well

    you promised.
    since we were 7
    every minor detail would be shared
    since then the lines have been blurred and burned
    but you woud think you could hint me in on something this colossal?
    i was so hurt by your dishonesty.

    and WHY cant i just spit out the words?
    i did
    you didnt get it
    and i read right through your lines
    you cant quite say no
    cause you wouldn't dream of letting me down
    but you are
    by kicking the dirt over my statements

    why you wanna give it, why you wanna give it, why you wanna give it all away
    they paved paradise and put up a parking lot

    hold hands Pictures, Images and Photos

    Thursday, November 6, 2008

    I Know You, I Danced With You Once Upon a Dream

    disney princesses Pictures, Images and Photos

    where did all their mommies go?
    to rehab of course.
    raising a princess can't be easy.

    All Over Again

    we'll still be here. cause we've been since the beginning. you just dont turn you back on things or people like this, genuine minds, genuine demeanors-d

    Enjoy life, and let love come- cs

    -holy crap. my friends hold talents that surpass mine

    Wednesday, November 5, 2008

    Sadly Enough...

    this reminds me too much of me and my best friend...usually about fall out boy.

    Tuesday, November 4, 2008

    i took a wrong turn back at the corner of love and hollowness

    i got halfway down the street when i realized, i had never seen this place in my life. and it was a place i named myself, but in fact, the given name was actually a town 1000 miles away

    twilight Pictures, Images and Photos
    i never understood her, but now i feel the same
    "im sorry that i couldnt...before... i wish i could change how i feel about you. Maybe...maybe i would change, maybe if you gave me some time... just dont quit on me now, i cant take it"

    no matter how far, you still evade my mind
    then i realize, theres none here
    so stop watching for it
    when the fuck did i fall apart.

    Saturday, November 1, 2008

    ten things

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    on my mind:
    1. will i end up like you? because i dont want to feel like that
    2. i dont want to be tied to you in the way i am, it'll hurt
    3. i'm so sorry
    4. happy birthday=]
    5. will my karma every come? the real kind, in the form i want
    6. i hate math
    7. shut up. seriously stop talking
    8. how long do i have to keep you a secret?
    9. i want to write something completely honest and true about myself, but i have nothing
    10. i have a lot of best friends. all different, all unique, i am so fortunate.

    any requests on what to write?
    i am totally slacking on here lately.

    my thoughts are just a frenzy of tangled spider webs
    same old dusty matieral
    just being moved about and over used

    i need new stuff.