dear Bedussy, im the anthem for what you've become

and i want it so bad
i'd shoot the sunshine right into my veins

here is my anthem: detoxjusttoretox

and this is my story:
You can only blame your problems on the world for so long
Before it all becomes the same old song
As soon as we hit the hospital, I know we're gonna leave this town

im running in a circle
in and out of hospitals
all those white walls look the same these days
im screaming because i feel nothing
but when i do it comes from the pit
and makes me shudder
i'd never whimpered before you
balled up on the ground
small and shaking
in a dark corner
like the last letter you wrote to her
that you balled up and tossed behind you because you couldnt get the words just right
but i get it now.
you never wanted to.
you never wanted to let go.
im just a ploy,
like perfect boys.
no body wants to hear you sing about tragedy