I Came In Last In The Human Race

-clandestine
lost my phone!
=[

damnit i miss my texting.


soooo anyways
i know you wont read this...
....but seriously screw you.

who do you think you are
"i dont care" about your secret show ticket.

"i dont care" if you got on a tourbus.

because somewhere along the way you missed what it was about: music.

and got caught up in the who's who and who you hang with
"i dont care"
seriously. never text me or my friends rubbing whatever you are doing in our faces.

we are not in junior high.

i understand you have no self esteem and you dont have a wonderful life
but who does anymore, evveryone has their secrets
i was more than willing to get along with you
but then you just had to go all FANGIRL on me.

so thank you,
for making me realize my maturity level is miles beyond yours.

"i dont care" about your privledges
"i dont care" about your fanclub"i dont care" about you and your secret show
"i dont care" about your local celebrity status
i just flat out..."dont care"

-drop a heart, break a name.
cause im through with this fucking game.

(i hated seeing you today, you and your friends. i was so embarassed.)

missing out sucks.
missing out without updates sucks worse.
i seriously feel like i fell off the face of the planet.
dont forget me ok?

damnit.
bad weekend? mhm.
but one person still makes me happy and lights me up =]
yay


today i went to the Nike Human Race.
it was amazing.
i missed Fall Out Boy and almost cried when i had to leave.
i might hate my sport, but times i laugh so hard i cant breathe with those girls makes it all good.

ohh wonderful videos to be uploaded
and pictures too.
.






sitting on my bed.
playing piano.
well more like keyboard. whatever


why does everyone have someone?
except me?

ok. emo time over NOW.

Flashing Lights

Its so odd how certain songs and artists being you back to place. i love it

metro station is my guilty pleasure....how embarassing.

Kanye West- Graduation: Football Season 07 and a certain ex
Fall Out Boy- Take This To Your Grave: Freshman.
Metro Station: Winter + Milwaukee + The Rave
Vanessa Carlton: Summer Camp
Cobra Starship- While The City Sleeps: Summer '07 HCT crowd
The Cab: Alex Marshall adkfakljsdhflkajdhflakdjfhaldkfh<3
Friday Night Boys: Memphis
The Hush Sound: Quincy, IL to home
Death Cab For Cutie- Passengar Seat: Driving Home after falling in love for the first time, and falling apart afterwards
Calabria: Watching someone run away from home
Pretty Fly- Offspring: Flying to Colorado with Erin and dancing in airport terminals
Mayday Parade- Jamie All Over: RMS and STS, bottles hidden under the couch and guitars plugged into amps in a quite basement
All American Reject- Night Drive: Aragon Ballroom November 2006
Boys Like Girls- Great Escape: Jumping off a couch and dancing around my basement with my best friend
Fall Out Boy- Hum Hallelujah: "For all those kids who glow in the dark"x4
Benny Benassi- Satasfaction: Freshman Homecoming, and the first screamo song i ever heard
Treaty Of Paris- Waking Up The Dead: December at the Metro, a day that i didn't know would change everything
Dash The Curry- M.I.A.: Lollapalooza 2007, talking to spin magazine about the experience
Vampire Weekend- A- Punk: Riding on the train home from the city with my mom realizing that i needed music in my future
Boys Like Girls- HeroHeroine: Unrequitted Love
Gym Class Heroes- Clothes Off: Paige
Panic! At The Disco- Nails For Breakfast: My First FBR sampler, the start of everything.
The Killers- Mr. Brightside: ExBestFriends(forNEVER)
Cute Is What We Aim For- Marriage To Millions- Driving during summer
Metro Station- Kelsey: Learning To Play Piano
Jacks Mannequinn- Dark Blue: Myspace!
Pedro The Lion- Indian Summer: Robot Chicken
The Beatles- Blackbird: Grant
Five For Fighting- 100 years: Kenny Driving at age 6, corn mazes in Michigan
Danger Radio- Slow Dance With A Stranger: Crazy crowd at the metro in august with my best friends

those are only the ones that reminded me of stuff on shuffle for 10 mintues haha.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN ROSS!

Automatic eyes/doyouwantmetostay/ doyouwantmetogo

crazy day.
3 tests.
and treated the way no human should treat another.
where is your pride and dignity?
you have a whole lifetime on me.
and still i hold more maturity than you ever will.
i dont understand.

on a lighter note.
i love findind people like me where you dont expect them.

weekend yay.
missing DIMMN boo.
game boo.
apps boo.
sleeping in? yay.

-Dakota-
i know our love is new
i barely know you
i've fallen over you
its the way you do the things you do
taht make me fall in love with you
dakota, are you in love with me too?
-A Rocket To The Moon

<3 love that song.
dedicated to someone special.

but to a real dakota.
rather a kansas.
Dear kansas,
your life always was a wreck, one proble after another
you hide it well
but now you have nothing more to hide it behind
because you keep withering away
until nothing is left
your own life will need support
and now shoved out of your home
too bad you pushed me away
and we went into our seperate lives
i would still be there for you
had you given me the chance
now all i get is a lonely glance when we pass
its so sad
the love we had, a shared place in life
its odd how we both still share those memories
but we are so far from eachother now
and the thrid of us
just looks at me and smiles with regret and apologetic eyes
because of the way i was deflected
and forgotten
shes sorry.
i dont know what you are
i dont know who you are
..at least anymore
...or maybe thats only what i believe
maybe youre stil the same underneath those bones
cause its all youve got left.


why hide it, you all know who it is.
circa2005

Life Lesson #17- be non-judgemental

Atop my book sits a pile of pills.

Clinton Sparks.- turn on your speakers.

screw you and your mixtape propaganda.
stop, only the lake effect kids earned it.

yay its tuesday.
i have time to do...nothing!
ahh what i relief.
heres what i do in my free time:


ahh yes, me time.

now that school has started, it seems i have lost all things interseting that can happen in a day.
except for that today in light of the new CFOB mixtape, while talking abotu parts of trees in Biology class, Jessica screamed "HEH STUMP!"...we couldnt stop laughing for 10 minutes.
Other than that...i collected bugs for bio specimen.
ew gross.
1 bee
1 wasp
1 moth
1 spide
4 ants
1 chinese beetle

anyways...vegimite.


hahaha
oh TAI tv...oh how i love you.

p.s. as much as i am a lake effect kid, i think its a new way to market. watch the OCKs become LEKs.
why cant anyone just leave it as it is?
one pure song, for the kids who run on bass vibrations and the skyline
and the night lights of the sears tower pump your heart, and yes...in our viens.

“what iF this is ALL over fOr Us? -will They Be OkaY?- is thIS the end or JUST the BEGINNING?”

HOLLY FALL OUT BOY!
---> Fall Out Boy Is Just Beginning.

ahhhhh! NEW FALL OUT BOY!
i was screaming during lunch when dan sent me clips
ah i think everything will be ok with them at my side. haha!
its kindof ironic how they guided me through the past 4 years and now will be guiding me through my senior year with another album.
O
M
G

and as far as sunday goes read dans blog:
.http://digmyowngrave.tumblr.com/
because im too lazy to type it all myself
=]
ahh sooo happy!

anyways.
homework in every subject...
...practice until 6...
...work until 8...

=[ boo i miss my time on my computer and doing nothing.
im having a really hard time letting go of fun.
haha

asdkjfhdalkjfha
more later
love for now.

like oh my god i like her

ah too much to say.
amazing day.
i'll update later, no time right now
a day full of irony and frantic thoughts.
heh

soon im putting up a list of things people dont know about me.
and heres something:

i want to be someones everything.
why do i always want instant gratification?
i dont know why i thought you could save me.
my thoughts are tripping over themselves.

i want not to want

shut up shut up shut up brain.